Posts Tagged ‘books’

get a grip

June 27, 2008

so here i am again… at the damn computer. i’m sick and tired of looking at this screen, sick and tired of thinking, just sick and tired in general, i guess. as you can probably tell from absolutely no capital letters. i don’t feel like hitting shift every 2 seconds. anyway… the whole book thing has really gotten me tied up in knots. i can’t figure it out one way or the other. it’s like getting in the car and having no place to go, just driving around aimlessly. it’s not a damn work of fiction so why the hell am i having such a difficult time writing it? i’m not making one single thing up, but i can’t figure out how to say certain things, if i should say certain things, and where the hell everything should go. good thing for editors, i suppose, but all stories are supposed to have a beginning, middle, and end, right? well where the hell am i supposed to start? this is getting ridiculous and i’m having plenty of doubts about whether it’s going to turn out well. or turn out at all… i’m not going to give up on it and i’m not expecting a best-seller by any means. this is easily the most frustrating thing i’ve attempted so far (except for raising children that is). any suggestions welcome… i’m running out of my own, and i need help with how to write an outline. jesus maybe if i would’ve managed to see high school through i’d know how to do this seemingly simple task. i quit high school at 13, went to college at 21 and managed a 4.0 there so what the hell is wrong with me now?!?!


hello again!

June 26, 2008

So, in my last blog entry, I mentioned that I might attempt an e-book. I also posted in the off topic forum… kind of to see what responses would be like. I got way more feedback than I thought I would, and as a result of that, I’ve decided to scrap the e-book and do it in hard copy. It may or may not sell, but the general consensus is to go ahead and write the damn thing. I’ve (obviously) never written a book before, so I’m positive this is going to be a harrowing experience. I’m also a little afraid because I think this is going to be a trip down memory lane, and some of the things that are behind the closed doors in my mind are there for a reason. I don’t suppose I have to lay out everything in this book but I don’t know if these are things I want front and center again. One member here posted that it would probably be therapeutic for me to write it, and that person is definitely right. All of this leaves me wondering if it’s just going to be a juvenile try… if anyone will read it, or if it will even be worth reading. I read voraciously and I know a good book from a crummy one. With that in mind I hope like hell I have the common sense to be able to look at it objectively, and if it’s a total piece of garbage, also to be able to just scrap it. I wouldn’t read a lousy book, and I sure as hell doubt my target audience (which are teenaged girls by the way) would read some poorly written diatribe. Which brings me to another problem- I am not sure even how to write it. I know that I want to write to them as opposed to at them, I’ve gotten that far at least. So we’ll see where it takes me. See you tomorrow!